I’m still recovering from the four days I spent at Tease last week. I’m generally not prone to sub-drop, but I certainly have Tease-drop. On the way home from camp I felt emotional and weepy. Since then the adjustment to ‘regular life’ has been slow. Last night I went to a local kink munch and [...]
Despite his trepidation, Jack was wonderful at the munch last night. There was already a good crowd when we arrived, and it was really nice to see everyone. We sat beside Deja, whom Jack really enjoyed talking to. I introduced him to a few of my friends and we ordered some drinks. Varick arrived and [...]
In my rush to get my entry about Forbidden written and posted, I forgot to talk about a few interesting aspects of the weekend that I particularly enjoyed. The first was the nudity. I have had serious body issues for years, and I am none too keen on taking my clothes off in front of [...]
I really, really want to write about my weekend at Forbidden, but it feels like my thoughts are scattered and disjointed. The entire experience was so surreal…so intense, on so many levels. It was pleasure and pain and wonder and distress, all wrapped up into a scant 41 hours. Before I begin, let me say to [...]
Yesterday morning Nia came over to watch the young ones while V and I went shopping with Varick. More specifically, to a leather store, in the hopes of finding him some suitable fet wear for this weekend. That earthy smell of tanned animal skin nearly knocks you over at the door. I just love that [...]
So, last night as Nia and I are driving to the pub where the munch is held, my phone starts ringing. Varick’s ringtone is currently Hot N Cold by Katy Perry, because the first line “You change your mind like a girl changes clothes” pretty much sums up my perception of him recently. If you [...]
I think I am done with Varick. It’s unfortunate really, especially since Forbidden is this weekend and he and I were/are going together. I may hold off breaking up with him until then, if only so that I don’t have to go alone. Things have changed between us since I have been back. Or perhaps [...]
As much fun as we had in Chicago, we were glad to get the hell out of there (as far as traffic went). We paid FOUR TOLLS on the way out, damn them. We didn’t see a lot between Chicago and Michigan, where we camped that last night. Passing Climax was amusing, as was driving [...]
I can’t get up the gumption to write much about the days before I left Ontario, but I figure I should at least record the fire play incident, if only for posterity. Mz. F and Varick accompanied me on Thursday evening (June 26th) to Deja’s house, to watch Secretary and do a little fire play. [...]
Jack and I had it out again over the phone this morning. It has been building for several days really, and it was good to finally have it over with. I know he has been worried about my emotional state. To be honest, I’ve been concerned as well. Generally I hold it together far better [...]
I’ve started three or four blog posts this week. I wanted to share our adventures of last week, and then I wanted to let you know what is going on with us. Each post felt forced, unnatural, and not genuinely me at all. My desire to write is still strong, but for the moment, the [...]
Since we moved here I’ve longed for more excitement, and now it’s finally coming around, in droves no less. Tomorrow morning I am fetching the lovely Mz. F from Pearson airport. She will be staying with us for a stretch this summer, which pleases me greatly. On Thursday evening I have plans with Varick. We’re going [...]
I don’t bruise easily. This is both a blessing and a curse. On one hand, I rarely have to give up wearing tank tops (which are a staple of my wardrobe) nor do I have to explain unusual markings to friends, family, or children. On the other hand, the moon-shaped red welts which had graced my [...]
This evening I am attending a pot luck dinner/play party at Deja’s place, along with Varick and about 10 of Deja’s other friends. Varick and I were texting back and forth about the party on Wednesday, and the conversation went something like this: Varick: I’ll bet you can hardly wait to see me Shasta: My, [...]
My baby girl was released from hospital this afternoon, much to our joy. Coming home was a bit odd. I’d been so focused on her the past couple of days, spending all but a few hours in the hospital with her, when we finally got home I just felt anxious. Not about her health, since [...]
So much awesome packed into so little weekend. You know, generally I spend weekends without Jack moping about, feeling lonely and forlorn. This time, however, a great time was had by the kids and myself, and I feel really great about that. Particularly for them, because they miss their dad, and I’m glad I could [...]
I’ve been spending an awful lot of time this week doing all of my belated spring cleaning. Having Varick come over, not to mention Padme’s arrival next week, is excellent motivation. There was plenty of catching up to do, and it feels awesome to see the house looking so clean and organized. Varick was supposed [...]
Stupid boys with their stupid boy penises! I’ve been flipping back and forth between angst and contentment when it comes to Varick. Basically it seems that I feel content when I talk to him, and then angsty when I talk to Deja. I adore her, and she’s a good friend to me. She only wants [...]
After the interesting adventure that was Friday night, I was really looking forward to Saturday afternoon and spending some more time with Varick. I arrived at Deja’s before he did, which gave her and I some time to talk. I filled her in on the incident with the police officer and she had a good [...]
This weekend certainly presented me with a LOT of interesting things to contemplate, and to write about. Really the best kind of weekend as far as I am concerned, even if it wasn’t exactly as planned. On Friday night I was at home with Jack. We had a couple of margaritas and watched some TV. [...]
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