Behind Every Beautiful Thing, There Is Some Kind Of Pain

Posted on March 21st, 2011 in Emotional Angst, Featured, Starting Over

Yesterday was a rough day. In fact it was so bad, and I felt so hopeless and desperate, that I seriously considered checking myself into a hospital.  I looked up suicide crisis centers in my city, just in case, and wrote down the numbers for several help lines. Sometimes life and the nastiness of this [...]

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The Dreams In Which I’m Dying Are The Best I Ever Had

Posted on March 10th, 2011 in Emotional Angst, Featured, Mating And Relating, Three's Company

There is plenty to report, but not much that I am willing to say.  Unfortunately, it may remain so for quite some time. Aiden has moved out, and now I divide my time between his place and what now feels like Jack’s house.  My schedule generally involves work, picking up the kids from school, doing [...]

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Better Than Playing In Traffic

Posted on February 6th, 2011 in Featured, Life List

Last week I decided to randomly cross something off of my Life List, and made some homemade playdough with my kids.  They seemed to particularly enjoy picking out food coloring with which to dye to dough, and then making it into all sorts of fun shapes.  We never had play doh from the store when [...]

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The Least Of My Worries

Posted on December 27th, 2010 in Are You Gonna Eat That?, Budge That Pudge, Does All Her Own Stunts, Made In Alberta

I’m writing this during our drive home from dropping the kids off with their grandparents (man I love being able to blog from my android phone).  We made it through the holidays unscathed and for the most part, had a wonderful time. I was totally spoiled this year by both of my loves, and by [...]

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Tigers Love Pepper (They Hate Cinnamon)

Posted on December 24th, 2010 in Are You Gonna Eat That?, Made In Alberta, Three's Company

It’s Christmas Eve, and despite the fact that I still have quite a number of tasks to complete, I felt like writing (and I may not get a chance to update until sometime after Boxing Day). This is the first Christmas we’ve had in Alberta where we were not traveling on Christmas Day.  You have [...]

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You Guys Are So Fucked Now!

Posted on November 29th, 2010 in Collar And Cuff, Does All Her Own Stunts, Made In Alberta, Photos, Polyamory, Tie Me Up

How was your weekend? Mine was productive, and yet relaxing.  Here, let me tell you about it. Thursday night (yes, I am starting on Thursday) was the evening Jack and I set aside to celebrate the anniversary of our engagement (which was technically on Friday, see below for why we had it on Thursday instead). [...]

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I Am Ashamed Of What I Did For A Klondike Bar

Posted on October 27th, 2010 in Advice, Emotional Angst, Mating And Relating, Polyamory

I think that there comes a point when a person just becomes very tired of catering to what other people think and ceases caring about the opinions of anyone else.  Well, almost anyone else.  Lets say they become more selective about it. When Jack and I decided to become poly, I don’t think either of [...]

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I’d Like To Double YOUR Entendre

Posted on September 20th, 2010 in Brazilian Waxing, Budge That Pudge, Made In Alberta

The worst part of major life upheavals, in my opinion, is how long it takes to find a regular schedule again.  With the kids back in school, things are beginning to fall into a rhythm. Jack works shorter hours now, and seems very happy in his position here.  Even though it was a bit of a [...]

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Vampires Love Forks

Posted on August 23rd, 2010 in Three's Company

Out of all the posts I’ve written describing our family or household, I think this quote is my absolute favorite, and probably the most precisely accurate of anything I’ve ever put up here: Often our house feels like a three-ring circus, with children and dogs leaping about, talking or barking at full volume, all four [...]

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Let Me Know If I Say Anything That Offends You, I Might Want To Offend You Again Later

Posted on August 18th, 2010 in Does All Her Own Stunts, Made In Alberta, Mating And Relating, Three's Company

I think that perhaps I am finding myself again, a little at a time.  Yesterday was particularly wretched, but by the end of it, I felt better, and more like “The Old Shasta”. I’ve wanted to write here a number of times, but it feels increasingly public, and while I don’t want to end up [...]

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There’s Definitely Something Unnatural Going On Here, And That Doesn’t Usually Lead To Hugs And Puppies

Posted on July 22nd, 2010 in Does All Her Own Stunts, Emotional Angst, Life List, Made In Alberta, Made In Ontario, Mating And Relating, Migration Paths, Polyamory

Has it really been so long since my last post? Presently I am writing from our new place in Alberta.  We are still negotiating our way through a maze of boxes, as our things only arrived on Monday. The trip to Alberta was long and wonderful and terrible and beautiful, all at the same time. [...]

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I’ll Say Goodbye My Friend, Goodbye, Under A Summer Moon

Posted on June 7th, 2010 in Emotional Angst, Made In Ontario, Migration Paths

The moving truck should be arriving in a mere 4 weeks. 4 weeks. 28 days. Either way, the very thought induces both anxiety and excitement all at once. In that time, we have to pack as many of our things as possible, plan and execute a birthday party for the eldest child, visit Wonderland and [...]

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Manatees Are Selfish

Posted on May 31st, 2010 in Are You Gonna Eat That?, Does All Her Own Stunts, Made In Alberta, Migration Paths

The new house passed building inspection (our inspector actually commented that it was the best house he had seen in a while) and it’s all ours.  We take possession at the end of June, and should be moving in sometime during the second week of July. I am absolutely in love with the place.  V [...]

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When I Grow Up I Want To Be A Notorious Homosexual

Posted on May 25th, 2010 in Mating And Relating, Polyamory, Three's Company

With the move and all that it entails, and consumes, I haven’t written in some time about how the co-habitation is going.  At least not in any specific way.  I’ve probably inserted tidbit here and there, while discussing some recent happening of our daily life, and mainly these days we just continue to move forward [...]

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How To Install Linux On A Dead Badger

Posted on May 3rd, 2010 in Are You Gonna Eat That?, Emotional Angst, Made In Ontario, Mating And Relating, Migration Paths, Photos

The weekend passed with very little incident. On Friday night Aiden went and picked up our friend, Dex, and the three of us went to see How To Train Your Dragon.  It was a SUPER cute movie, and we all really enjoyed it.  Jack and P took the kids to see it during her visit [...]

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Well I Only Made Out With Him ‘Cause Torturing Him Didn’t Work

Posted on April 16th, 2010 in LARP, Made In Ontario

I’m so happy that it’s finally Friday! Not that the week has been particularly long or bothersome.  Actually it was quite a good week overall.  The final paperwork on the move was completed and we were finally able to share the news with our families.  They are understandably thrilled.  Jack and I went out on [...]

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The Things We Said – Maybe They Don’t Get Out Enough…

Posted on April 6th, 2010 in The Things We Said

Sadie:  Look at what I made at school today.  This ball is made out of tinfoil. Luke:  *obviously impressed* REAL tinfoil? Sadie:  Yes, REAL tinfoil. Luke:  Wow!

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Costuming: The REAL Reason Your House Is A Fucking Disaster

Posted on February 18th, 2010 in Emotional Angst, LARP, Photos, Polyamory, Three's Company

My mum has been here for almost 24 hours now, and so far, so good. Last night after we got the kids to bed she sat and chatted with me while I worked on Aiden’s chainmail (the green and black, shown below) and has offered her assistance in weaving it.  I was pleased that she appreciated my [...]

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I’m Not So Good With The Advice, Can I Interest You In A Sarcastic Comment?

Posted on February 10th, 2010 in Collar And Cuff, Emotional Angst, LARP, Mating And Relating, Polyamory, Three's Company

In response to this post, Tonya enquired as to our contract and how Jack feels about another man ordering me around and telling me what to do.  I wanted to address this in it’s own post because a comment reply could potentially be five miles long, heh  Ya’ll know how I get so wordy sometimes. [...]

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Don’t Play Leap-Frog With Unicorns

Posted on February 7th, 2010 in Mating And Relating, Polyamory, Three's Company

I don’t know which is more annoying: having the desire to blog, but being unable to think of anything particularly interesting to write about, or having lots to write about but no desire to blog. In response to my previous post, Perakath remarked: I feel a bit bad for Jack! Is he really okay with [...]

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