Ugh, I hate how my period makes me moody and extra sensitive.
Perhaps the pinky-purple daisies (in the photo above) that Aiden brought me on Tuesday were a preventative measure. You know, so that I wouldn’t rip his face off at the most minuscule of provocations.
I loathe women who use their cycle as an excuse to act like [...]
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It has taken a number of days for the household to recover from my mother’s visit, but I think things are pretty much back to the way we like them around here.
She and I had ONE rather explosive argument, that began with the laundry and ended with our respective shortcomings as participants in this parent/child relationship. [...]
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72 hours to go.
Somehow it seems shorter when I think of it in hours, rather than days.
My mum and I are still getting along just fine, but between you and me, I’m ready for her to go home. It’s not that she has done anything terrible, it’s just that her presence interferes with, well, almost everything. I [...]
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My mum has been here for almost 24 hours now, and so far, so good.
Last night after we got the kids to bed she sat and chatted with me while I worked on Aiden’s chainmail (the green and black, shown below) and has offered her assistance in weaving it. I was pleased that she appreciated my project, [...]
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My mother has been threatening…err, talking about coming out for a visit for several months now, so I suppose I shouldn’t have been so surprised when she phoned me last night to let me know that she was booking a flight.
A flight for next Wednesday.
And she’s not going home until the Wednesday after that.
A whole [...]
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In response to this post, Tonya enquired as to our contract and how Jack feels about another man ordering me around and telling me what to do. I wanted to address this in it’s own post because a comment reply could potentially be five miles long, heh Ya’ll know how I get so [...]
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Quite unexpectedly, one of the things I’ve found the most uncomfortable and difficult when it comes to my relationship with Aiden, is being really emotionally vulnerable with him.
I can be physically vulnerable, that doesn’t scare me at all, but when it comes to talking about my feelings, or God forbid, crying in front of him [...]
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Monday marked the end of my second month as Aiden’s slave.
Typing that word in reference to myself still makes me cringe a bit, but not as badly as it did in the beginning. I’ve grown accustomed to some aspects of wearing a collar 24/7, but many are still a struggle.
Asking for what I want is [...]
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Posted on December 17th, 2009 in Emotional Angst
OMG, I HATE CHRISTMAS!
There, I said it.
Today I went in to work, which was a mistake, because EVERY. SINGLE. PERSON. that I talked to asked me
“So, are you ready for Christmas?”
And I was all like
“FUCK NO! I’ve purchased like ONE gift so far, and I haven’t sent a single card, or even bothered to put up all [...]
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Some of you may have noticed that I haven’t mentioned Kade around here for a long time. Not since October 21st, to be precise, and before that it was August 12th.
The relationship ended, as far as I was concerned, sometime mid-September, but I’ve been avoiding dealing with it since then because I hate giving people [...]
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Posted on November 29th, 2009 in Emotional Angst
This time of the year is always hit or miss for me.
Some years I’m REALLY into Christmas and the holidays. Cards are sent before the end of November. Tree is up on the first of December. Presents are purchased and wrapped well in advance of the shopping rush. All of these things are done with [...]
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Some days it’s really, really hard to be a good slave.
Ok, in my case, it’s just about every day, but cut me some slack, I’m a beginner.
I forget to follow the rules, or sometimes I just don’t feel like it and disregard them on purpose. I don’t really want to be disobedient, I just have [...]
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Sometimes the most difficult parts of poly are juggling time between partners, negotiating schedules, and discussing emotions ad nauseum.
Sometimes the most difficult parts are agreeing on which movie to rent on a Friday night, or whose turn it is to wash the dishes, or which bed to sleep in.
Lately, the most difficult part for me, [...]
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So I’ve been bleeding for nine days now. Yes, NINE, which is four days longer than normal. This post is going to talk about blood, a lot, you have been warned.
No, I’m not going to bitch and complain because it’s really not so bad.
My period came early this month (the first cycle I’ve had since [...]
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Tomorrow afternoon is my appointment for the IUD insertion. Apparently I am also lacking Hep B vaccination, so I think they are going to give me the first of three shots for that while I’m in there. I switched schools in the middle of grade 12, when everyone was getting vaccinated, and so I only [...]
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Just as I was dozing off to sleep last night, I had a good idea for a post, and thought to myself “Ok, I’m totally going to remember to write about __________” in the morning. Naturally by this AM I have forgotten, so I’m going do two things:
A) Start keeping a pen and paper beside [...]
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So in just under two weeks, I’m going to get an IUD. A Mirena IUD to be precise.
This is not a decision I came to lightly. In fact, when I entered the sexual health clinic a week ago, I was already of the mind that I wanted my tubes tied. Not right then of course, [...]
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It’s often easy to become frustrated with the world we live in. Global warming, Wal-Mart, and politics aside, there is the fact that the ‘lifestyle’ I chose to live is mostly unheard of, and probably light years away from social acceptance.
I’ve had this stuck in my craw for days, so I figured I might as well [...]
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Has it really been a week since my last post? I suppose it has. The time has flown by, as is to be expected during days away from home.
We reached Edmonton late last Wednesday evening. The kids and the dogs were troopers during our trek across America. We drove through three new states, which bring my [...]
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