Yesterday was a rough day. In fact it was so bad, and I felt so hopeless and desperate, that I seriously considered checking myself into a hospital. I looked up suicide crisis centers in my city, just in case, and wrote down the numbers for several help lines. Sometimes life and the nastiness of this [...]
There is plenty to report, but not much that I am willing to say. Unfortunately, it may remain so for quite some time. Aiden has moved out, and now I divide my time between his place and what now feels like Jack’s house. My schedule generally involves work, picking up the kids from school, doing [...]
I’ve been mulling over what to do with this blog, and with my now inactive Twitter account. I’ve debated deleting them both, after offering alternative contact information to anyone that would like it. I don’t think that I have it in me to continue tweeting, and now that I’ve been away from it for over [...]
Earlier this week I wrote a sizable post, speaking about our current state of affairs, but after allowing it to sit for a few days, and consulting other involved parties, I’ve decided against publishing it. The fact of the matter is that Jack and I are separating. Despite outward appearances and the timing of everything, this actually has [...]
On Saturday night the three adults that live in this house sat down together to have a family meeting. This is not unusual for us, however, the outcome of this particular meeting happened to be that Aiden is going to be moving out of our home. It saddens me just to type it, and I [...]
I think that there comes a point when a person just becomes very tired of catering to what other people think and ceases caring about the opinions of anyone else. Well, almost anyone else. Lets say they become more selective about it. When Jack and I decided to become poly, I don’t think either of [...]
There is something of a back-burner guilt that goes along with neglecting ones blog. Often it will occur to me to write something here, and lately I’ve been pushing it off in favor of vanilla projects, such as other blogs I write, or amassing backpacking gear and Warhammer miniatures. Truth be told, I haven’t had [...]
I don’t know how many of you read PostSecret every Sunday, but it’s been something of a weekly ritual here for years. One of the items on my Life List is to send in a postcard at some point. While I haven’t yet made time for that particular list item, I *have* left a note [...]
As badly as I wanted to move back to Alberta, and as happy as I am to be here, for some reason I feel…not quite myself since we got here. I haven’t been sleeping well, I’m edgier, more easily agitated, noticeably more negative in my attitude. I don’t feel like I have been handling things, stress in particular, [...]
I know this is going to make me sound incredibly spoiled, but I’ve never actually moved into a second-hand house before. At least, not a house of my own. Every place that Jack and I have lived since moving in together has been brand-spankin-new and generally built to our tastes. The current house came to [...]
Has it really been so long since my last post? Presently I am writing from our new place in Alberta. We are still negotiating our way through a maze of boxes, as our things only arrived on Monday. The trip to Alberta was long and wonderful and terrible and beautiful, all at the same time. [...]
In a mere weeks time, the last of our things should be disappearing into the back of a moving truck. It would seem that my ability or desire to write has been packed amongst the knickknacks and flotsam collected over the course of our lives. I’ve sat down to write at least a dozen times, only to find myself [...]
The moving truck should be arriving in a mere 4 weeks. 4 weeks. 28 days. Either way, the very thought induces both anxiety and excitement all at once. In that time, we have to pack as many of our things as possible, plan and execute a birthday party for the eldest child, visit Wonderland and [...]
The weekend passed with very little incident. On Friday night Aiden went and picked up our friend, Dex, and the three of us went to see How To Train Your Dragon. It was a SUPER cute movie, and we all really enjoyed it. Jack and P took the kids to see it during her visit [...]
After a wild house-hunting adventure, and some much-needed quality time with my BFF, we managed to find a suitable dwelling, that we both absolutely love, UNDER the price we were willing to pay. It doesn’t get much better than that. Ok, yes it does, but it’s still pretty damned awesome, and a huge relief to [...]
I really want to write something here today, and I must have started this post at least half a dozen times, but I find myself getting several lines in and then deleting it all and walking away from my computer for a while, only to sit down and start again, delete, rinse, repeat. I’m certain [...]
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I’ve started a number of blog posts this week, and they just never seem to get finished. First I began writing about a tantrum I had on Friday that culminated in me taking off my collar and leaving it on Aiden’s bed while he was at work. The discussion that followed was rather uncomfortable for [...]
Just when it seems that all is quiet on the home front, and we are beginning to settle into a rhyme and rhythm that suits everyone comfortably, fate tosses us a curve ball. Karma is rarely without a sense of humor. For the third time since our move to the eastern end of the country, [...]
Ugh, I hate how my period makes me moody and extra sensitive. Perhaps the pinky-purple daisies (in the photo above) that Aiden brought me on Tuesday were a preventative measure. You know, so that I wouldn’t rip his face off at the most minuscule of provocations. I loathe women who use their cycle as an excuse to [...]
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