Oh No, Someone Ate Spaghetti In The Shower Again
Posted on March 31st, 2010 in Are You Gonna Eat That?, Body Mods, Collar And Cuff, Does All Her Own Stunts, Emotional Angst, LARP, Made In Ontario, Mating And Relating, Migration Paths, Polyamory
I’ve started a number of blog posts this week, and they just never seem to get finished.
First I began writing about a tantrum I had on Friday that culminated in me taking off my collar and leaving it on Aiden’s bed while he was at work. The discussion that followed was rather uncomfortable for me, and just this morning I completed the two-page apology that will hopefully earn me a second chance at being Aiden’s slave. I miss my collar. I feel naked without its familiar weight around my neck.
Second I began writing about the dull and mostly shitastic weekend that I had, but it’s all water under the bridge now.
Third I began writing about P’s arrival, and the wonderful visit we’ve had thus far. Yesterday we spent the day shopping together, and making plans for the future. We talked about her relationship with Jack, and I assured her that I am indeed very ok with them being together, and that I hope it lasts. Yes, I still have the odd twinge of discomfort in my guts, but it passes as quickly as it comes. Kind of like a moment of unfounded anxiety, or having butterflies when you drive through just the right sort of dip in a road at just the right speed. Any “weirdness” (I wouldn’t even go so far to call it jealousy or insecurity or anything like that) on my part is quickly and easily dispersed by the fact that they make each other so happy, and it makes me happy to see them together.
This is what compersion feels like.
Next week Aiden is going to be working graveyards, which means I will be sleeping alone at night. My period is also due on Tuesday, which means I am going to have to be extra-aware of my emotional state and do what I can to keep my irrational craziness in check. Aiden and I have LARP next weekend, so fortunately I will have that to look forward to. Even though we don’t actually spend a lot of time together “in-game” there is still the car ride there and back for us to talk and be with each other. We should be able to coordinate sleep schedules at the event as well so that we both get in a bit of cuddling time, and aren’t apart the entire weekend. That’s the thing about LARP. Even though it’s something we do together, we aren’t actually together while we are there. In the game we don’t know each other, so it doesn’t make any reasonable sense in the story for us to be anywhere near each other. If we were staying in this game for any period of time, yes eventually our characters would probably become pals, but for now we are essentially strangers.
It’s strange, I know. Just smile and nod.
The paperwork for our relocation came though, and Jack signed off on it. Now the whole thing just has to get one more signature (from someone in Jack’s office, whom is in charge of such things) and it’s all set in stone for us. That should happen today or tomorrow. Either way, by Friday everyone in our family will know that we are moving, and the minor details should begin to solidify (the exact moving timeline, help with the kids and with packing, the actual crossing of the country, etc.)
There seems to be so much to do, in what feels like very little time, but I know it will all work out as it should. It always does.
For the time being I am going to enjoy my visit with P. Aiden and I have plans to go hiking on Friday. I’m going to pack a picnic, and later in the evening we have a family dinner to attend (on his side) to celebrate Granny’s birthday. Saturday is my tattoo appointment, and also Easter dinner here at Chez Gibson. I think we are going to have turkey, with all of the excessive trimmings, since I didn’t go all out for Christmas and I am kind of in the mood to celebrate what with all the great news we’ve had around here lately.
That reminds me, I’d better plan to do some baking tomorrow. Maybe I will post some photos of food, or my new bras or panties. MAYBE.