I just wanted to poke my head in for a moment to let anyone still reading here know that I am doing alright.
Things are better these days. Aiden and I have moved in with his brother and his brother’s wife. We have a much nicer place now. I even get to have cats again for the first time in over a decade. That makes me happy.
I had a really important job interview on Tuesday for a position that could potentially change my whole life. Fingers crossed that it works out.
Jack and I are getting along really well. I would even go so far as to call our relationship “friendly”. It’s nice. Much better than it was. I think we are both moving in the best direction for our kids, and for ourselves.
Therapy has been beneficial. As has learning to let go.
I miss this place. I may be wandering back from time to time. I don’t know that the coast is clear yet, but I am hoping that soon I can use my blog again. It may take on a new feel, but it’ll still be me, just writing about life, sharing the ins and outs of my existence.
Until then, know that I am well, still muddling through, more successfully than before 
Love,
Shasta
Due to the fact that certain people feel it’s their duty to intrude on what I consider a personal situation, I see no choice but to put this blog on hiatus for the foreseeable future. It’s not really “mine” anymore, nor is it a safe place for me to express myself in anything more than the most superficial of [...]
Over the course of this separation, I’ve noticed an ongoing theme when it comes to questions that people ask me in relation to what is going on. Namely, in no particular order: Where are you living? Are you and Aiden going to continue being poly? Have you told the kids? And so, I shall attempt [...]
I went ahead and renewed this domain for another year. Fear not, I am still around, and now that Aiden and I finally have internet access at his place, I might once again find the time for writing. We are all managing to muddle though. It seems that with Jack and I both in therapy [...]
“The best way to predict your future is to create it.” – Abraham Lincoln
I hope you never have to know what it feels like to be in my shoes. I hope you never think that your kids would be better off with someone else, someone who can give them the best of everything, because you failed them. Because you failed yourself. I hope you never have to hear [...]
Yesterday was a rough day. In fact it was so bad, and I felt so hopeless and desperate, that I seriously considered checking myself into a hospital. I looked up suicide crisis centers in my city, just in case, and wrote down the numbers for several help lines. Sometimes life and the nastiness of this [...]
There is plenty to report, but not much that I am willing to say. Unfortunately, it may remain so for quite some time. Aiden has moved out, and now I divide my time between his place and what now feels like Jack’s house. My schedule generally involves work, picking up the kids from school, doing [...]
I’ve been mulling over what to do with this blog, and with my now inactive Twitter account. I’ve debated deleting them both, after offering alternative contact information to anyone that would like it. I don’t think that I have it in me to continue tweeting, and now that I’ve been away from it for over [...]
Earlier this week I wrote a sizable post, speaking about our current state of affairs, but after allowing it to sit for a few days, and consulting other involved parties, I’ve decided against publishing it. The fact of the matter is that Jack and I are separating. Despite outward appearances and the timing of everything, this actually has [...]
Last week I decided to randomly cross something off of my Life List, and made some homemade playdough with my kids. They seemed to particularly enjoy picking out food coloring with which to dye to dough, and then making it into all sorts of fun shapes. We never had play doh from the store when [...]
On Saturday night the three adults that live in this house sat down together to have a family meeting. This is not unusual for us, however, the outcome of this particular meeting happened to be that Aiden is going to be moving out of our home. It saddens me just to type it, and I [...]
Jack and I recently celebrated our 9th wedding anniversary (10th anniversary as a couple) and he surprised me with a limosine ride to the Calgary Tower, where we had dinner at the revolving restauraunt. It was such a surprise, totally amazing, and not to mention, crossed TWO things off of my Life List: 85. Ride in a [...]
We are only two weeks into 2011, and I’ve already managed to cross something off of my Life List, and I am half-way though a second item! It’s shaping up to be a productive year. Jack got me a wonderful dehydrator for Christmas, which made it easy to make our own beef jerky! 325. Make [...]
2011 got off to kind of a rough start. The day after our fantastic NYE Luau party (which was a grand success) I started my period AND came down with a really bad case of the flu, all while Jack and I were in Edmonton spending a few days with his family. I was very [...]
I’m writing this during our drive home from dropping the kids off with their grandparents (man I love being able to blog from my android phone). We made it through the holidays unscathed and for the most part, had a wonderful time. I was totally spoiled this year by both of my loves, and by [...]
It’s Christmas Eve, and despite the fact that I still have quite a number of tasks to complete, I felt like writing (and I may not get a chance to update until sometime after Boxing Day). This is the first Christmas we’ve had in Alberta where we were not traveling on Christmas Day. You have [...]
I’ve been practicing my play piercing technique, and not just on lifeless poultry carcasses. Aiden decided that I wouldn’t be allowed to poke needles into him until I’d tried it on myself, and so with much trepidation, I gave it a go. The first time kind of sucked. The second time hardly phased me. My confidence is [...]
I’ve finally decided to acknowledge that it’s almost Christmas. My denial of the season comes not from my usual distaste for the entire over-commercialized mess that is December, but from the fact that I have been utterly and completely distracted by matters completely unrelated to the holidays. Fortunately, even though I didn’t feel the least [...]
2010 has been quite a year, has it not? The past 12 months have seen Aiden move in with us and become a part of our family. Then there was another move of epic proportions, taking all five of us, and the two dogs, over 2,000 miles back across the country. Back to Calgary and [...]
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