These Walls Surround Me With The Story Of Our Life

Posted on February 11th, 2011 in Emotional Angst, Featured, Mating And Relating

Earlier this week I wrote a sizable post, speaking about our current state of affairs, but after allowing it to sit for a few days, and consulting other involved parties, I’ve decided against publishing it.

The fact of the matter is that Jack and I are separating.

Despite outward appearances and the timing of everything, this actually has almost nothing to do with Aiden, and Jack will attest to that if you had the opportunity to ask him.

Currently I have moved into my own room, and we are gradually untangling the finances and discussing the future of the children.  There is plenty of pain and sadness to go around, but we are doing our best to keep things extremely amicable.

I understand that people will have their opinions, and rather than locking the comments, I’ve decided to brace myself and leave them open.  I hope that if you chose to remark, you will remind yourself that this blog is only a glimpse into our reality, and that behind it all we are real people, with complicated lives.

As things are rather raw, I likely will not share anything more detailed until the dust has settled.  For now, I simply take each moment as it comes, and do my best to remain true to myself.

Published by Shasta

7 Responses to “These Walls Surround Me With The Story Of Our Life”

  1. TaraNo Gravatar Says:

    I am in no place to judge the reasons why or how you ended up here.

    What I do know, is breaking up with your husband is an incredibly hard and painful thing to go through – for ALL parties involved.

    Big hugs to you and your family during an incredibly painful and unhappy time.

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  2. AdamNo Gravatar Says:

    My deepest sympathies on your situation. I feel your pain because I am going through the same thing right now. My wife just moved out last weekend.

    The interesting part, we still love one another deeply, we’ve just recognized that we want different things from our lives. There’s no grudge (at least not beyond the occasional feelings of angst that go with such a tremendous upheaval). We even have no desire to divorce. We will be married living apart.

    I don’t know what the future holds, but I do know I’m being true to myself, as you are. To thine own self be true. And know that you are not alone.

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  3. tonya cinnamonNo Gravatar Says:

    oh love… many hugs and my thoughts are with you and jack and the kidlets and aiden

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  5. SharonNo Gravatar Says:

    I’m sorry to hear, since I also follow Jack on here and his sadness has been clear, I thought that a major emo moment was behind it.
    The very best thing we did before telling our kids (I don’t know if you have yet) was taking a one time visit to a child psychologist before and asking for advice.
    Sending warm vibes from cold Wpg.

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  6. EsinedNo Gravatar Says:

    I am right there with you… Call me if ya need to. Hugs.

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  7. RoxyNo Gravatar Says:

    Hugs, love and compassion for all of you as you go through such a painful time. Although I’ve never met you, I’ve read this blog for years now, and so you feel like extended friends.

    Ultimately, I wish peace and forgiveness for you, for yourselves and each other. May you all find your joy again, in whatever form it takes.

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