Stiletto Diaries™

Will You Be My Pretend Friend?

Posted on July 15th, 2009 in Does All Her Own Stunts, Life List, Made In Ontario, Polyamory, Tie Me Up

I’m still recovering from the four days I spent at Tease last week.  I’m generally not prone to sub-drop, but I certainly have Tease-drop.  On the way home from camp I felt emotional and weepy.  Since then the adjustment to ‘regular life’ has been slow.  Last night I went to a local kink munch and some of my camp-mates were there, so we mostly sat around, discussing all that had happened and sharing our respective states of exhaustion.  It was like a prolonged adrenaline rush that came to an abrupt end, and we’ve all had some difficulty recovering.

The aches remaining from the fun I had serve as a nice reminder.  When I brush the outside of my thighs, the sore spots remind me of the rough hemp rope that was wrapped tightly around me.  The bruises on my back remind me of being chained between two trees.  The tan line left by my watch remind me of lounging in the sun naked or topless for hours.  I miss the freedom I found at camp.  It’s one of the few places where you can be completely yourself, and nobody judges you at all.

I arrived at camp late on Wednesday night, despite the fact that I had a sore throat, and had entertained thoughts of not going at all.  I set up our tent, which is larger than many apartments I’ve seen, and unpacked only what I needed for that night (bed, sleeping bags, etc) and made myself a cup of hot chocolate on the camp stove before crawling into bed.  It was the first time I’d ever gone camping alone.  I felt a little lonely, so I messaged Jack and Kade from the phone and they kept me company until I was ready to fall asleep.  Such sweet men I have in my life

46. Camp in a tent by myself for (at least) 1 night

Thursday morning came very early. I know I didn’t sleep well, and I still felt rather ill, but I drug myself up and spent the better part of the day getting the remainder of my things unloaded and set up. Next time I go I think I would like to arrive several days in advance so that I wouldn’t have to spend so much of the first day working out where things are going to go and how I’m going to organise camp.

473. Go to Tease

The other campers on my site arrived and we caught up on each others lives (I’ve been sort of laying low recently, and so they wanted to know what I’d been up to). It was wonderful seeing so many friends. I wandered around camp and ran into many familiar faces. I saw Varick there, which wasn’t a surprise, as I knew he would be attending. We said one “Hey” to each other the whole time I was there, and otherwise pretty much stayed away from each other. I noticed he avoided our camp area, despite the fact that I was camping with a good number of our mutual friends.

As I still had a rather sore throat, I took it easy on Thursday. I napped, hung around the camp fire, visited, and then went to bed early with another cup of hot chocolate. I chatted with Kade and Jack again before falling asleep, because it’s hard being sick with no one around to look after you.

Fortunately by Friday morning I was beginning to feel much better. The details from that day, which turned out to be very exciting, will have to wait until my next post.