Happeh…Ur Doin It Wrong
Posted on April 17th, 2008 in Emotional Angst
First of all, thank you so much for all of the awesome comments you left me yesterday. I really enjoyed the feedback on the new site, and I’m very pleased that everyone seems to approve! I’ve got gift packs on the go, and if I haven’t gotten your address yet, please it to me!
As excited as I am over the new digs and all of you lovely commenters, I felt ‘off’ all day, for no particular reason. First I thought maybe it was because I haven’t done anything I would call useful today. Frequently I get a little stressed out when I feel that I haven’t been productive over the course of the day. I also worry that the things that I have done will not be the things that Jack wanted me to do, and that he will be disappointed with me.
Here’s a run down of my day and then I can examine it and decide if I’ve been productive or a slug:
7:00am – Got up, got dressed, got 2 kids dressed, fed them breakfast, made lunch for one child, made coffee, answered e-mails
8:30am – Take one child to school. Pick up Nia and take her to gym. Take small child with me to volunteer obligation for 9am-Noon
12:15pm – Tin Horton’s Drive-Thru for coffee
12:30pm – 1:30pm – Home Depot for pipe snake to unclog second floor toilet (I have no idea what got flushed down there) and house plant paraphaneila
1:30pm – 2:30pm – Garden Center for other house plant paraphaneila and hanging planters for plants who have outgrown current pots
2:45pm – Drop Nia off at home and head to school
3:00pm – Fetch older child from school
3:15pm – Stop at Dollar Store for bubble envelopes (for gift packs) and other paper goods
3:45pm – Get home, make snack for kids, check phone messages, call repair man back who I had forgotten was coming earlier that day, arrange new appointment time, check e-mail, address envelopes.
4:30pm – Repair man arrives, damage is worse than initially thought. While he from the basement out to his truck and back 500 times I started re-potting what seemed like a million house plants.
6:00pm – Feed children, clean up massive dirt mess on the deck, talk to Jack on the phone and beg him to have mercy on me and bring home pizza.
6:15pm – Realize that period is due tonight/tomorrow and sigh with relief that I’m not actually going crazy, it’s just my hormones.
Now – Sit on couch and stare at Jack forlornly, asking him how he can possibly love me, since he would have been better off marrying a sloth, who likely would have proven more useful.
I guess it does seem like I did something, it’s just not important things (in my humble opinion) even though all of it did need doing sooner or later.
I really hate using my period to justify moodiness or bad behaviour. Generally I make my very best effort to remind myself that I am not a slave to my emotions. Today is just one of those days I suppose, and perhaps I need to cut myself some slack.
Padme suggested I treat myself to a hot bath tonight, maybe with a little wine and a bath bomb. That sounds REALLY good right about now. Maybe I can lure Jack into joining me.
I’m looking forward to the weekend and spending some time unwinding.
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April 17th, 2008 at 7:12 pm
You set standards very high and are too hard on yourself. Omg if that is your day and you feel like a slug, as you put it, than I must be beneath that LMAO.
I am a big lazy bum. Hubby spoils me with doing 70-80% of chores around the house INLCUDING making supper. He sometimes even kicks me out so he can clean up the place… yea. I take full advantage :3 *feels slightly guilty*
IMO you do alot and seem to me to be a supermom/friend/wife. Pat yourself on the back girl!
*hugs*
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April 17th, 2008 at 7:18 pm
We all have days like that and it’s really good to treat and pamper yourself a bit, Shasta. I suggested the bath with a bath bomb and a bit of wine as that is what always cheers me up a bit and relaxes me when I am feeling emo or had a long day and especially with pms. I have found slowly down a bit during my cycle does help a bit with all the emotional feelings. I agree with Esined that you are very hard on yourself. That sounds like so much that you did today with having pms on top of it all.
I really hope you take my advice and have a really relaxing evening with Jack with a bath and some wine. You deserve it, my friend. Please try to take it easy tonight…
XOXO
padme amidala
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April 17th, 2008 at 8:02 pm
I am so glad that I am not the only one that writes things like this. (I sent a very similar email to a friend last month…)
It has taken me a while to realize that I can’t please everyone everyday. My problem is the only person I don’t seem to please is myself. I am not sure why but it’s like women think that they have to be superheroes. And I wish I knew why, because I need to stop…LOL
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April 17th, 2008 at 8:14 pm
starbbucks carmel vanilla latte
bubble bath candles
good music turned low
and your jack washing you slowly with scented soaps
if that a no go
then add jager ,cranberry juice, and peach snhapps togther with ice
=red headed slut drink …awesomeness!!!
with love from your stalkerlishious girl
feel better soon!! hugs!
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April 18th, 2008 at 9:17 am
Shasta,
Love the new site. Good luck with it!
Ken & Jen
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April 18th, 2008 at 10:29 am
Sounds like you were plenty busy. And there are always days like that, where we spend running from place to place to place and when all is said and done, we feel like nothing got done. You did good. Hope you took that bath and relaxed!
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April 18th, 2008 at 2:00 pm
I love when I’ve finally convinced myself that I am going crazy and then remember it’s time for my period. It is such a relief.
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