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Cannibalism Is The Highest Form Of Love

Posted on June 2nd, 2010 in Budge That Pudge, Life List, Migration Paths

It would appear, that after seven months of having my IUD, my period has neglected to come at all.  Being four days late, and knowing that under regular circumstances, the mere thought of sex is nearly enough to induce a pregnancy, I decided to pee on one of those fancy sticks the other night.  It turned up “Not Pregnant” which is what I expected, but I wanted to know for sure.  It’s not a bad deal, not having to endure a monthly bleed, but it’s kind of unsettling the first time, LOL.  I still felt, emotionally anyway, like I was going through the normal symptoms of having my period (I haven’t had cramps or any physical symptoms in months now) but I think it was less severe than what I experience when I do actually menstruate.

The countdown to the move is somewhere around the 38 day mark.  Meaning we will be leaving Ontario in just over a month.  Sometimes when I think about it, it seems surreal.  The days are passing so quickly now, I am sure that June will be a blur, and before we know it, we will be unpacking our things in the new place.  Craziness.

Generally stressful times lead to acting like I’ve completely lost my mind, due to a combination of sleeplessness and having too much on my plate, both literally and figuratively.  I’ve decided that I will not use moving as an excuse to eat anything I want, or to behave like an utter loon, or to lay around bemoaning the fact that I’m exhausted from packing and therefore do not have the energy to work out.  Summer has arrived, and although I have gone to the beach and braved frolicking in public in a swimsuit, it has been with much angst and trepidation.  I would like to be able to enjoy sunning myself and swimming without feeling self-conscious all the time, and so it’s back on the wagon of exercise and eating better.  I never use the word DIET, because I believe that the negative connotations it generally carries, only fuel the feelings of sadness and deprivation that many people buy into.  I don’t believe in dieting, but I do believe in making changes to ones lifestyle that facilitate being healthy.  Regular exercise also seems to even out my moods, and prevents a lot of unnecessary conflict, which in turn makes everyone happier, so it’s a win-win-win, all the way around.

Last night I sat down to add a few things to my calendar (and dayplanner, and Aiden’s calendar, and my Google calendar, and, well you get the idea) which is becoming increasingly full as the move draws nearer.  There are a number of things I wanted to accomplish before leaving Ontario, but I won’t get to all of them, which is ok.  I know for certain that Aiden and I will be back to visit his family at least once a year, which will give me an opportunity to cross a few more off.

Right now I am hoping to get to the zoo and pet a stingray, visit the CN tower, and experience Canada’s Wonderland.  Beyond that, well I am not holding my breath, LOL.