I’m Into Self-Torture and Long Walks With My Guilty Conscience
Posted on January 24th, 2006 in Does All Her Own Stunts, Emotional Angst, Mating And Relating, Polyamory
Jack and I sat down and had a little talk tonight. Naturally he is quite disappointed in me and my apparent disregard for the rules and the well being of our marriage. It has caused him to question my ability to follow the rules in general, which I understand completely.
All I have been able to do is apologize and try (with utter failure) to explain myself, not to mention promise him that nothing like this will EVER happen again.
Being wonderful and loving he has decided that all the internal torture I have been inflicting on myself is more than enough in terms of consequences.
The foundation of this arrangement has been built on our ability to communicate with each other and always be open about our feelings. We can talk about problems without anything becoming heated or either of us going on the defensive.
Trust me when I say that I have learned my lesson. I am not typically one of those people that has to screw up eight or nine times before they ‘get it’. Once it too much in my opinion and I will be following our rules to the letter from this day forward.
Thank you to my commenters for you support and concern I love you all and you make this blog worth writing. Pictures and more good smut are on the way, I promise!