Behind Every Beautiful Thing, There Is Some Kind Of Pain

Posted on March 21st, 2011 in Emotional Angst, Featured, Starting Over

Yesterday was a rough day. In fact it was so bad, and I felt so hopeless and desperate, that I seriously considered checking myself into a hospital.  I looked up suicide crisis centers in my city, just in case, and wrote down the numbers for several help lines. Sometimes life and the nastiness of this [...]

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Tigers Love Pepper (They Hate Cinnamon)

Posted on December 24th, 2010 in Are You Gonna Eat That?, Made In Alberta, Three's Company

It’s Christmas Eve, and despite the fact that I still have quite a number of tasks to complete, I felt like writing (and I may not get a chance to update until sometime after Boxing Day). This is the first Christmas we’ve had in Alberta where we were not traveling on Christmas Day.  You have [...]

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You Guys Are So Fucked Now!

Posted on November 29th, 2010 in Collar And Cuff, Does All Her Own Stunts, Made In Alberta, Photos, Polyamory, Tie Me Up

How was your weekend? Mine was productive, and yet relaxing.  Here, let me tell you about it. Thursday night (yes, I am starting on Thursday) was the evening Jack and I set aside to celebrate the anniversary of our engagement (which was technically on Friday, see below for why we had it on Thursday instead). [...]

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I Beat The Internet. The End Guy Is Hard

Posted on October 24th, 2010 in Migration Paths, Three's Company

Has it really been 20 days since the last time I posted?  Time certainly does fly when one is busy. We recently celebrated Thanksgiving here in Canada, and I had the great pleasure of hosting dinner for a number of friends, including LD, V, P, Aiden’s brother and sister-in-law, and M.  Much food was eaten, [...]

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I’m Too Drunk To Taste This Chicken

Posted on October 4th, 2010 in Emotional Angst

There is something of a back-burner guilt that goes along with neglecting ones blog.  Often it will occur to me to write something here, and lately I’ve been pushing it off in favor of vanilla projects, such as other blogs I write, or amassing backpacking gear and Warhammer miniatures.  Truth be told, I haven’t had [...]

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I’d Like To Double YOUR Entendre

Posted on September 20th, 2010 in Brazilian Waxing, Budge That Pudge, Made In Alberta

The worst part of major life upheavals, in my opinion, is how long it takes to find a regular schedule again.  With the kids back in school, things are beginning to fall into a rhythm. Jack works shorter hours now, and seems very happy in his position here.  Even though it was a bit of a [...]

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There’s Definitely Something Unnatural Going On Here, And That Doesn’t Usually Lead To Hugs And Puppies

Posted on July 22nd, 2010 in Does All Her Own Stunts, Emotional Angst, Life List, Made In Alberta, Made In Ontario, Mating And Relating, Migration Paths, Polyamory

Has it really been so long since my last post? Presently I am writing from our new place in Alberta.  We are still negotiating our way through a maze of boxes, as our things only arrived on Monday. The trip to Alberta was long and wonderful and terrible and beautiful, all at the same time. [...]

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I’ll Say Goodbye My Friend, Goodbye, Under A Summer Moon

Posted on June 7th, 2010 in Emotional Angst, Made In Ontario, Migration Paths

The moving truck should be arriving in a mere 4 weeks. 4 weeks. 28 days. Either way, the very thought induces both anxiety and excitement all at once. In that time, we have to pack as many of our things as possible, plan and execute a birthday party for the eldest child, visit Wonderland and [...]

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Manatees Are Selfish

Posted on May 31st, 2010 in Are You Gonna Eat That?, Does All Her Own Stunts, Made In Alberta, Migration Paths

The new house passed building inspection (our inspector actually commented that it was the best house he had seen in a while) and it’s all ours.  We take possession at the end of June, and should be moving in sometime during the second week of July. I am absolutely in love with the place.  V [...]

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A Bear Is Just A Man Who Made A Choice

Posted on May 24th, 2010 in Made In Ontario, Migration Paths

We are presenting an offer on another house this weekend.  Jack was in Calgary for a couple of days recently and was able to scout out some homes for us.  One in particular seems to meet all of our requirements, and it’s a great deal, so we are making a move on it, even though [...]

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My Wife Is A Gangster

Posted on April 27th, 2010 in Does All Her Own Stunts, Emotional Angst, Made In Alberta, Migration Paths

After a wild house-hunting adventure, and some much-needed quality time with my BFF, we managed to find a suitable dwelling, that we both absolutely love, UNDER the price we were willing to pay.  It doesn’t get much better than that.  Ok, yes it does, but it’s still pretty damned awesome, and a huge relief to [...]

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My Hovercraft Is Full Of Eels

Posted on April 25th, 2010 in Migration Paths

This post was originally written on Friday, April 23.  I haven’t had an opportunity to post it since then. I’m writing this from around 40,000 feet above the state of Michigan, on my way to Calgary. Jack and I were able to book a last-minute expedition out west to hunt for a new dwelling. Aiden [...]

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I Want To Marry This Tree

Posted on March 20th, 2010 in LARP, Made In Ontario, Migration Paths, Photos

“Are you leaning today?  If so, which way?” If I had a nickle for every time that Jack and I have exchanged such messages in the last few days, well I’d have at least a dollar. Then it breaks down to the numbers.  Percentages to be exact. “I think I’m 95/5 at the moment.  You?” [...]

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Why Is It That Every Time I Need To Get Somewhere, We Get Waylaid By Jackassery?

Posted on March 18th, 2010 in Emotional Angst, Migration Paths, Three's Company

Just when it seems that all is quiet on the home front, and we are beginning to settle into a rhyme and rhythm that suits everyone comfortably, fate tosses us a curve ball. Karma is rarely without a sense of humor. For the third time since our move to the eastern end of the country, [...]

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Hang On, This Is Gonna Be Bad

Posted on February 11th, 2010 in Emotional Angst, Polyamory, Three's Company

<Rant> My mother has been threatening…err, talking about coming out for a visit for several months now, so I suppose I shouldn’t have been so surprised when she phoned me last night to let me know that she was booking a flight. A flight for next Wednesday. And she’s not going home until the Wednesday [...]

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New Levels Of Absurdity Will Be Reached Before The End Of The Day

Posted on February 8th, 2010 in Emotional Angst, Mating And Relating, Polyamory, Tie Me Up

Quite unexpectedly, one of the things I’ve found the most uncomfortable and difficult when it comes to my relationship with Aiden, is being really emotionally vulnerable with him. I can be physically vulnerable, that doesn’t scare me at all, but when it comes to talking about my feelings, or God forbid, crying in front of [...]

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The Things We Said – It’s All An Illusion

Posted on January 14th, 2010 in The Things We Said

V:  So is the title of your last post the way you say “Merry Christmas” in Ukrainian? Shasta:  Basically, yes V:  How do you pronounce it? Shasta:  I have no idea V: *Pause* Well, at least you sound smart on the internet

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Dear Shasta: Kids And Co-habitation

Posted on November 25th, 2009 in Dear Shasta, Mating And Relating, Polyamory, Three's Company

In response to Monday’s post, Sharon asked: I’m very curious on how you are going to discuss this with your children now and on-going? That’s an excellent question, and deserves a post unto itself.  As an aside, if anyone would like to ask questions about our co-habitation arrangement, that I can’t answer in a sentence or [...]

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We’re All In This Thing Together

Posted on November 23rd, 2009 in Mating And Relating, Polyamory, Three's Company

“He practically lives at my house” I remarked the other day to a friend during conversation.  Even when he’s not here, you’d not know it.  His socks, and other items of clothing, are regularly found mixed in with the rest of the laundry that languishes, unfolded, on one of the spare beds.  When I do [...]

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Vancouver – Day 1 & Day 2

Posted on October 21st, 2009 in Are You Gonna Eat That?, Does All Her Own Stunts, Mating And Relating, Photos, Polyamory

Aiden drove me to the airport on Wednesday night so that I could catch my flight out to Vancouver.  I had booked the trip in August, as I didn’t have a chance to see my siblings over the summer holidays, and I’ve missed them a great deal.  It was also a great opportunity to hang [...]

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