There is plenty to report, but not much that I am willing to say. Unfortunately, it may remain so for quite some time. Aiden has moved out, and now I divide my time between his place and what now feels like Jack’s house. My schedule generally involves work, picking up the kids from school, doing [...]
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I’ve been mulling over what to do with this blog, and with my now inactive Twitter account. I’ve debated deleting them both, after offering alternative contact information to anyone that would like it. I don’t think that I have it in me to continue tweeting, and now that I’ve been away from it for over [...]
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Earlier this week I wrote a sizable post, speaking about our current state of affairs, but after allowing it to sit for a few days, and consulting other involved parties, I’ve decided against publishing it. The fact of the matter is that Jack and I are separating. Despite outward appearances and the timing of everything, this actually has [...]
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On Saturday night the three adults that live in this house sat down together to have a family meeting. This is not unusual for us, however, the outcome of this particular meeting happened to be that Aiden is going to be moving out of our home. It saddens me just to type it, and I [...]
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2010 has been quite a year, has it not? The past 12 months have seen Aiden move in with us and become a part of our family. Then there was another move of epic proportions, taking all five of us, and the two dogs, over 2,000 miles back across the country. Back to Calgary and [...]
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I think that there comes a point when a person just becomes very tired of catering to what other people think and ceases caring about the opinions of anyone else. Well, almost anyone else. Lets say they become more selective about it. When Jack and I decided to become poly, I don’t think either of [...]
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Posted on October 4th, 2010 in Emotional Angst
There is something of a back-burner guilt that goes along with neglecting ones blog. Often it will occur to me to write something here, and lately I’ve been pushing it off in favor of vanilla projects, such as other blogs I write, or amassing backpacking gear and Warhammer miniatures. Truth be told, I haven’t had [...]
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The weekend passed with very little incident. On Friday night Aiden went and picked up our friend, Dex, and the three of us went to see How To Train Your Dragon. It was a SUPER cute movie, and we all really enjoyed it. Jack and P took the kids to see it during her visit [...]
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I really want to write something here today, and I must have started this post at least half a dozen times, but I find myself getting several lines in and then deleting it all and walking away from my computer for a while, only to sit down and start again, delete, rinse, repeat. I’m certain [...]
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Yesterday P and Jack left for an outing in Niagara Falls. As a surprise/gift to the two of them, I made arrangements for an overnight stay at a hotel overlooking the falls, in a room with a jacuzzi and a king sized bed. Their mini vacation also included several VIP wine tastings, a dinner for two at [...]
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I’ve started a number of blog posts this week, and they just never seem to get finished. First I began writing about a tantrum I had on Friday that culminated in me taking off my collar and leaving it on Aiden’s bed while he was at work. The discussion that followed was rather uncomfortable for [...]
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Just when it seems that all is quiet on the home front, and we are beginning to settle into a rhyme and rhythm that suits everyone comfortably, fate tosses us a curve ball. Karma is rarely without a sense of humor. For the third time since our move to the eastern end of the country, [...]
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Ugh, I hate how my period makes me moody and extra sensitive. Perhaps the pinky-purple daisies (in the photo above) that Aiden brought me on Tuesday were a preventative measure. You know, so that I wouldn’t rip his face off at the most minuscule of provocations. I loathe women who use their cycle as an excuse to [...]
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It has taken a number of days for the household to recover from my mother’s visit, but I think things are pretty much back to the way we like them around here. She and I had ONE rather explosive argument, that began with the laundry and ended with our respective shortcomings as participants in this parent/child [...]
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72 hours to go. Somehow it seems shorter when I think of it in hours, rather than days. My mum and I are still getting along just fine, but between you and me, I’m ready for her to go home. It’s not that she has done anything terrible, it’s just that her presence interferes with, well, almost [...]
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My mum has been here for almost 24 hours now, and so far, so good. Last night after we got the kids to bed she sat and chatted with me while I worked on Aiden’s chainmail (the green and black, shown below) and has offered her assistance in weaving it. I was pleased that she appreciated my [...]
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<Rant> My mother has been threatening…err, talking about coming out for a visit for several months now, so I suppose I shouldn’t have been so surprised when she phoned me last night to let me know that she was booking a flight. A flight for next Wednesday. And she’s not going home until the Wednesday [...]
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Quite unexpectedly, one of the things I’ve found the most uncomfortable and difficult when it comes to my relationship with Aiden, is being really emotionally vulnerable with him. I can be physically vulnerable, that doesn’t scare me at all, but when it comes to talking about my feelings, or God forbid, crying in front of [...]
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Monday marked the end of my second month as Aiden’s slave. Typing that word in reference to myself still makes me cringe a bit, but not as badly as it did in the beginning. I’ve grown accustomed to some aspects of wearing a collar 24/7, but many are still a struggle. Asking for what I [...]
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Some of you may have noticed that I haven’t mentioned Kade around here for a long time. Not since October 21st, to be precise, and before that it was August 12th. The relationship ended, as far as I was concerned, sometime mid-September, but I’ve been avoiding dealing with it since then because I hate giving [...]
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