I’m Not Tense. Just Terribly , Terribly Alert
Posted on December 17th, 2009 in Emotional Angst
OMG, I HATE CHRISTMAS!
There, I said it.
Today I went in to work, which was a mistake, because EVERY. SINGLE. PERSON. that I talked to asked me
“So, are you ready for Christmas?”
And I was all like
“FUCK NO! I’ve purchased like ONE gift so far, and I haven’t sent a single card, or even bothered to put up all of my decorations, because this season is STUPID!”
And then they look at me as if I’ve just suggested beating up baby Jesus with a pipe wrench, which in turn makes me feel like sodomizing them with a Christmas tree.
I’ve really have been making an effort to get into it this year, and I’m just failing spectacularly. I baked some cookies last week, which really only served to create more work for myself. Baking is messy, and while I normally love doing it, right now it only serves to irritate me to the point where the corner of my left eye begins to twitch.
It seems as though since the beginning of the month, I’ve been more tired and moody than usual. I managed to hold it together for most of last week, but this week I just want it all to be over. I know Christmas is really just a day, and that nobody is going to award me any points for making it awesome, but I feel like I’m sort of killing it for the more festive people that must put up with me. I’m sorry guys, I will make it up to you, maybe for Easter.
For a while I feared that I might be depressed, but that’s most certainly not the case. I know this because when I get depressed, I feel as though I will never be happy again. In this case I know that I will be happy eventually, but just not until December 31st.
December 17th, 2009 at 2:40 pm
would it make you feel better if i don’t send you a card? and what, you’ll put up a cross & decorate it for Easter? give everyone gifts of a lashing? actually, that doesn’t sound so bad…
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Shasta
reply on December 18th, 2009 7:43 am:
Nia,
Please still send me a card!
For Easter I thought we’d have a zombie party to celebrate Ded Jeebus Weekend
Gifts of lashing sounds fun too!
XOXO
Shasta
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December 17th, 2009 at 11:53 pm
Christmas isn’t about being Martha Stewart or June Cleaver. I know how it feels to be off. I felt like that last year. This year I decided to ease the pressure and do things I wanna do, not because it’s the holidays.
You don’t have to wait dec 31. Go out and have a bottle of vino with friends and just talk/dance/fuck the night away!
Don’t try to live up to holiday magazines standards… THEY have like a bunch of assistants and workers to spruce up thier home and cook thier meals!
Hang in there babes! I wish I was there to cheer you up!
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Shasta
reply on December 18th, 2009 7:47 am:
Esined,
The trouble is that my in-laws are arriving here on Tuesday, which means I’m going to have to mostly keep up appearances of being a well behaved house wife until the 30th of December. I know I failed to mention that, but it has a lot to do with my frustration and dread in regards to the holidays. Otherwise I’m sure I’d be in far better humor.
I wish you were here too! Miss you lots.
XOXO
Shasta
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December 18th, 2009 at 7:01 am
You don’t think your IUD could be affecting your mood do you? Maybe you could have Aiden order you into a better holiday spirit!
Thank you for the help you’ve given me (without even knowing it!) through the year past. Good Luck!
Dave
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Shasta
reply on December 18th, 2009 7:50 am:
Dave,
Oh I’m sure that has something to do with it. Jack suggested that I consider taking it out, because he’s worried about me, but I’m not ready to call it quits yet. We shall see how I feel once the holidays have passed. Only a couple more weeks to go.
You’re most welcome for any help I inadvertently provided over the past year
You have no idea how much your comment made my day.
XOXO
Shasta
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December 18th, 2009 at 11:59 am
Shasta,
I can relate to you a lot. The holidays have been pretty tough on me this year due to the loss of my Dad and a very tough year for me. I am glad to have had your friendship though as it is one of the best parts of my life. We had a good chat this morning about the holidays. Remember that it’s only two more weeks til New year’s eve and you can celebrate a new year and the holidays behind us. It will be over before you know it!!
Hang in there, my friend.
XOXO
padme
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December 18th, 2009 at 11:35 pm
I would totally lend you a hand if I was there! Shit I so wanna join u ATM lol
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