Protected: Heed The Power Of My Hypnotic Abilities
Posted on April 25th, 2008 in Emotional Angst, Polyamory
Emo is really not a good look for me. I'm not entirely certain what is up with me lately, or down, for that matter. To be honest, I've been feeling really...frustrated, discouraged, and disappointed. I figure it likely has something to do with my lack of friends, even after almost a year here. Also there aren't any potential dates on the horizon, all of the males seem to have lost interest, or they are lazy and non-committal. Nia is the only person I have to hang out with, and as much as I like spending time with her, it would be nice to at least have other options. Tomorrow night we're going to this Sex Party and she has two really hot people meeting her there for sex and then she's staying the night in the city. I have no prospects, and I'll be driving an hour and some home alone, at night, late. It's so depressing I feel like I don't even wanna go now. I'm thinking I'll just take her in, stay a polite amount of time, and then fuck off and come home to Jack. Seems like a waste of gas really, but whatever. Also I'm sick and I hate it because I spent most of March being sick and now I just want to be better. The worst part really is that I hate feeling all crappy and that just makes me feel all the worse. Like I should be able to just tough it out. I'll make friends eventually I'm sure. V will be here in just a couple of months. You'd think I could manage to not be such a turd at least that long. I don't want to feel like shit anymore.Published by Shasta
