Stiletto Diaries™

Overwhelmed: To present with an excessive amount

Posted on June 27th, 2006 in Does All Her Own Stunts, Mating And Relating, Polyamory

Worry not my pretties, I have not abandoned you.

Life has just decided to overload me with many many things at once. I feel so overwhelmed I can hardly breath from the strain of it.

Anyway, I really have a lot to catch you up on so I must do so quickly because I have about 500 other things that I need to get done.

We shall begin with last week on Wednesday. The young man I was supposed to be meeting for drinks on Thursday had to cancel on me last minute due to some family issues. Since I had already designated that block of time to going out, I decided to invite out another recent friend of mine, whom I shall call H.

H is also poly, and as it turns out we know a lot of the same poly people. Apparently we are quite an incestuous little community, LOL.

So Thursday night I met H at a pub. We had wings (well I did, H is a vegetarian) and beer and chatted about all manner of things. I was only a little bit nervous, but H is easy to talk to, and we’ve been chatting online long enough that I felt more at ease with him than I normally do with new people.

We left the pub and went for a bit of a walk until we found a nice place to loiter for a while. H is rather attractive, and I really like him as a person. We had a really good time together, although I wasn’t really sure that he was interested in me beyond friends because he wasn’t ‘putting the moves’ on me.

It was getting late, and we both had things to do the next day, so we hugged (he’s an excellent hugger!) and exchanged a quick kiss and parted ways. It was an awesome date and I really hope I can see him again soon.

My original plans ended up being changed due to circumstances beyond our control (I was actually relieved to not have to deal with the L situation). I ended up going to my mother’s for the weekend. Nothing eventful occurred, and we got back Sunday night.

Something was wrong with my cell phone so I was talking to K online and we ended up fighting. Which continued on all day yesterday via e-mail. A lot of things got misunderstood, and we were both upset, so I went in to see him last night and sort things out in person.

We went for a drive and talked. I clarified some statements I made that had caused him to feel attacked. He explained why he had gotten defensive, and we worked it all out. Lately it feels like he and I are at each other more often. I think perhaps the situation has just been wearing on us, and we don’t usually get to talk about issues in person.

Also, K has made friends with someone new, who happens to be a female, and even though there is nothing sexual going on (yet!) I feel somewhat threatened by her. She lives closer to him and they are able to spend more time together than he and I are. Sunday they went to the zoo together (with some other friends) and for some reason that made me really annoyed. I think it’s because K hasn’t done a lot of things around the city, and I like doing ‘first time’ stuff with him. Like he’s never been to the zoo before, and I dunno, I guess I am sort of possessive about getting to do things like that with him. However, I know how totally unfair and ridiculous that is, so I am trying to let it go. Besides, I never said to him “I’d like to go to the zoo with you” so it’s not like he did anything wrong. Since then I have called shotgun on a few events/places that I specifically want to take him to before anyone else does. Selfish of me? Perhaps. I would like a few things to be special for just him and I, which I don’t think is unreasonable.

Jack does the same thing with me. He loves doing ‘first time’ things with me. He took me to my first concert. Took me for my first weekend in Banff. My first time to Jasper. My first time eating sushi. He’s planning to take me to Vegas for my first time as soon as we can. Those memories are so special to me now, because I was with someone I loved, experiencing things I had never experienced before. Jack has gone to incredible lengths for me many times, to make my life so wonderful and full of surprises. It’s cool to be able to do that for K sometimes as well, since I know how it made me feel that someone cared enough to go to all the trouble.

And I know I’m not the only one with this complex. I talked to V about it and she can totally understand. She’s the same way, maybe we all are on some level. To me going someplace or doing something with someone who has never been or done, is almost as good as going or doing the first time yourself. Even better if you actually haven’t either!

Anyway, the rest of this week is going to be crazy. I have in-laws coming to visit, I work every single day this week (not normal for me but I picked up two extra shifts), and some landscaping stuff is in the works. Lot of fun for me, very boring for the blog which will not get a lot of attention. I usually say that and then end up blogging ever day, LOL, so we shall see. I have kind of a fun meme/interactive commenter thing I plan to post tomorrow, so I hope all my fantastic readers will participate in that. It was created for livejournal and I am still sort of unsure how I can make it work for blogger, but I’ll figure it out.

On a final note, thank you to all the people who commented on my last HNT post I was starting to wonder if maybe no one really wanted to see my gratuitous ass pictures. So glad I was proved wrong I will be posting an HNT again this week, so look forward to that (and keep it up with the comment love).

Oh, one more thing, LOL. Attention everyone whom Jack and I chat to on messenger (K, O, H, Padme, and all the rest of you without a designated letter) just wanted to let you know that something horrid has happened and we cannot run messenger. We get an error message when we try to start messenger that says a required file was not found. We tried uninstalling and reinstalling, no dice. If anyone has any advice about this, e-mail me or comment, please!

At this rate I may never finish this post, LOL. I am not one to cater to my readers, since this blog is my space for whatever I want. But I have recently kicked off a new fitness challenge for myself (I want to lose 24 pounds by my 24th birthday in a couple of months). Just curious if anyone here would want to read about that at all. I do try to keep this blog focused on poly and that sort of thing, but sometimes I want to write about other things, like weight loss, and it seems silly to start a separate blog for that. I know I can write about whatever I like, but it helps if I know at least a few people wanna read about what I am going to say. So if you don’t mind reading about how my run went yesterday morning or what I ate this morning, just let me know.

Now, since I have already hung around here long enough, I have to git going. I hope that everyone is having a great week. Have some chocolate for me since I am doing a cleanse where I cannot eat any refined sugars. Adios!